August 2012
6 posts
“Bicycles remind me of him”
“I don’t know what to do…”
Finally got a call from my doctor about an appointment I had weeks ago. Great doctors right? I have no words for what she said…I’m utterly speachless and a lot of things are fixing to change. I have to go be by myself now.
Getting over him is probably the hardest thing ive ever done. Everyday its a work in progress and whats worse is feeling like its not hard for him at all and that he doesn’t care at all. I know hes moving on and he deserves to I guess but it was like poof a switch was turned off shut the door without a word and kept walking. And after everything we’ve been through after everything...
I just don’t want to be here anymore…anywhere…I just want to be alone far away. and if I cant have that then I want nothing. Ive lost myself.
Make me go away
Dear God make me a bird so I can fly far far away
Dear God make me a bird so I can fly far far away
Dear God make me a bird so I can fly far far away
July 2012
14 posts
I am done...smoking gun...
Almost two weeks.
And hes only spoken to me for a day.
And only because he wanted to know if I was really pregnant or not. Yeah he really loves me, right? There’s no need for all this. Its obvious now he never wanted to get back together because he could barely last another month with me before he ran off again. Maybe he was feeling guilty for how he ended things..Maybe I’m just...
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I wish someone would fight for me.
What is it about me that lets people know that they don’t have to worry? That I’m laid back? That they shouldn’t waste their time hurting for me?
None of that is true.
Repeat, repeat?
I feel like I have literally stepped back to my 18 year old self and I’m repeating the past. Here I am scared I’m pregnant (though when I was 18 I didn’t know at the time) and hes not responding to any attempts of me trying to get in touch with him. Why is it so fucking easy for him to just cut communication off with me and move on? I don’t get it at all. We have a fight...
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Its been a while since I last written on here mainly because I was content with my life and didn’t feel the need to bitch about it. Bobby and I got back together and we were working on things and all seemed to be going fine. Then I missed my period and things got stressful and our differences started to become an issue and it wasn’t an easy time. Ill admit I was scared shitless I had...
June 2012
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I dont know what is going on with me as of late but I’m feeling really lost in my thoughts and sad. I don’t know what happened or how to get over it. I keep feeling like if I let myself get to happy the floor is going to fall out from under me again. I just want to be normal and be happy.
May 2012
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A day to remember
Well on Sunday I spent pretty much the entire day with Bobby. I gotta say it was pretty great. When he got there he was trying to figure out what was up with my car and after that we ate and laughed and were silly. It didn’t feel forced like it has in the past like he actually wanted to spend time with me and wasn’t forced to be there. We walked around walmart and I stated the fact...
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Ocharleys dinner date woot!! So excited!!
When am I ever going to be good enough?
Seriously, what more can I do for you? What have I done that’s so wrong that makes you believe I’m not good for you? I’m sick of feeling not enough I gave you EVERTHING and I get nothing in return. You just left when it got to hard. Is that a man? Cos that’s the only man I know. My dad my step dad Bobby. Why cant you just LOVE me and hold on tight when things get tough and...
