Well on Sunday I spent pretty much the entire day with Bobby. I gotta say it was pretty great. When he got there he was trying to figure out what was up with my car and after that we ate and laughed and were silly. It didn’t feel forced like it has in the past like he actually wanted to spend time with me and wasn’t forced to be there. We walked around walmart and I stated the fact that we’ve never been just friends we’ve always either been together or not talking. He said he agreed and that he keeps having to stop himself from trying to hold my hand. He said that and it made my heart hurt just a little. I wanted him to. We walked around walmart and we were flirting and touchy feely and finally he pushed me in a clothes rack and kissed me underneath all the clothes. It felt just right and familiar and like I was home.

Kari texted while we were in walmart and she called soon after and he ignored both but it made me uncomfortable. Like we were a secret. I don’t know.

After that we rode around on the bike and then he took me to so something I had never done before which is go to the driving range and hit golf balls. Golf reminds me of my father and I desperately try to at all cost not think of that man but I actually had a blast. Hes really good and I hit a few good ones myself. When we were done with that we went to our park. Sat on our swing and watched all the kids plays and we talked and laughed and it was effortless.. We decided to go bowling later in the evening and I was truley surprised because usually bobby doesn’t like to miss a full nights sleep and he was willing to miss some just to be able to hang out with me longer. Hector and Omar ended up wanting to go and I figured he’d act really distant from me with them there but he wasn’t and that surprised me as well.

We ended up having to go back to walmart on the way to bowling because I didn’t have any socks and on the way he was apparently tagged or a bunch of people he didn’t know like his relationship status change. He seemed genuinely surprised and upset and I looked over at his phone and it said Kari was in a relationship. I immediately shut off. He isn’t mine anymore but once again things were happening when I thought it wasn’t suppose to. I tried to pretend and look extremely interested in socks but he knew something was wrong. The most amazing thing happened. For the first time in the entirety of me knowing him he only asked once what was wrong and then he immediately knew. It was something that always drove me nuts and all I ever wanted was for him to figure it out. And he did. We talked and eventually I told him if we were ever going to be together again than I was gonna have to meet her. And that I didn’t get why out of all the girls he was so damn persistent about her. He says shes like his little sister and that nothing would ever happen with her and all she does is bitch about her family. He also said those pictures he posted about “he stole her hear so she stole his last name ” were about me.

Afterwards we went bowling and had fun at first it felt a little weird and towards the end I was getting tired but in the end it was a really good day. He kissed me goodbye and we left on good terms. I just wish things could always be that easy and fun. When we aren’t together hes attentive towards me and sweeter and happier. I just wish we could keep it like that and be together. That he could act like that all the time and be happy with me.
Don’t get me wrong he was sweet and loving but on the other side he was almost gaurded. Which is understandable but it still makes my heart hurt and makes me a little sad.

Idk

All I know is I want to see him again and I really hope for more days like that.